Merry Christmas

I hope you all enjoy the picture for the Christmas at the Library, It has be a great blessing for me to volunteer here all season. I be able to see a really monkey and an Kangaroo (no these two are not in the living nativity), but the handler of the animals has them in her tail er so i was very bless to hold them both, When i get the video up loaded (When i get the new cord in the mail) i will let you see the monkey climbing all over me.
Well as you can see i been very busy with the library. But i have found time to get the small Blog down for you. So i hope you all have a very blessed Christmas. and it you have time to make it to the Library before the last night on the 23rd I would love to see you. I will be out the Sat, Mon, and Tue night. see ya

 
 
 
 

one of the biggest day in history

well here we are, i am taking a min to write my thoughts on this mile stone of history in they USA. how will it be??? it is 9:43 history is still being written. I go to do kids voting today and these kids new more about this race then when i was there age. most of them were PRESCHOOLS!!! wow i was very impress that they knew what is going on. It is change ever min, kay hagan wins.I could be here all night tell you result, but i will not. One is that you know what is going on as you watch the tube, Internet, and i got to say my little laptop can not keep up so i had to take a break from Face Book, news sites.

well History has just been changed, HIS has his hand on us and HIStory will change also. Hail to you obama, I hope the CHANGE will be made. 2008 I AM PROUD TO BE APART OF THIS HISTORY MOMENT!! WOW, yes i am happy we have OUR FRIST BLACK AMERICAN PRESIDENT!! I am do have my worries.

I praise McCain speech that he made in his concise speech.

I will shift to tell you about what is going on well Sat i will turn 41, ouch that will hurt!! and were am have i come from........ alot that you will here one day in a book (if i will every get done) yes i did say a book. I am working on it now but we will see. SIM is not working out i have not worked going on two weeks and each week i just wait for them to call me. Yes i hurt very much and all i can do it just keep going which is very hard.



I have been selfish because i hate that i don't have what i wish, and sometime wonder why me? then i get a phone call Monday night and i found out that my friend Penny Hangman lost her battle with CANCER!! So every those i am not working, no Husband, no kids, but i have my health. So forgive me for my sour-puss face/voice that some of you have heard from me, i will try to do better. I will say that it is not easy for me, and there will be day we all get down. but Penny was always happy when you saw her, a smile on here face, i am so sorry she is gone. but i got to be happy with that my health is great. Yes we all have a get deal of money trouble but we are here and GOD what me to keep smiling for PENNY and live knowing that our lives can change day-by-day, year-by-year and me need to remember WE Can make a CHANGE for now, but to remember this is not our home. Yes i do wish I was with my Savior (forgive me for saying that but it has it true) NOW THAT HAS CHANGE and it too CANCER to wake me taking a good friend and the Lord, to say yes you are still here and i won't you here. My live will change, How? Well right now i do not no, but HE dose. Penny save me a sit near you. I love you and will miss you for awhile

Fall is here, but it dose not feel like it

well here is what i am up to, there is not much to say but i started this blog so i would like to keep it up. I am only working when i am needed so that meant i did not work at all this week. I have wrote some on my book but i do not know if i will finish or not, My Friend said that maybe it dosed not have to be a big bio, but little stories about my life, I did started writing Thurs but it was not easy. We will see.. it has been a hard week for me, I had not working, it is hard to been here all day long, and i went to church for an hours then i come up and i am by myself again. I have a lot of friend but they never call me. Plus go out and wasted money on things i do not have. I am back at the Billy Graham but it is slow there(forgive me Linda and Anne.) My dad gave me a lot of things that he have on me from me growing up to use for this "book," and it is wild to look back and see i have always had a very hard time getting job. A friend said to me that I would never be hired at a retail store because I do not have the right image that stores are looking for, it made me mad at frist, but it is so true. I sometime fell like my life is over, and what is I really trying to write a book for money?? yes that what i hope, but that should not be why i am writing it. I do what it too be fun, something i can enjoy, but i need a publisher, any one know one. then that means money witch i do not have.

I also wish i was married or had a mate to hang out with, and my parent will not say it or push it but they do wish they had grand kids, yes i know this is not going to make me happy, and i am lucky that i can come and go when i want, but hate the trough of my parent being gone and i am left here by myself. yes i have great friends out there more them some, but i am always call you all, you never call me. I do the same things most weekend most of it is going to my friend house on Friday and sat night and then another home on Sat. I love being with these friends. but i do not want them to get tried of me, and some time i would like to go to a jazz club or something like that, but that not a good place for me to go by myself. All my friends have kids so we can not go anywhere but i love being with their kids(please my fiends, and you know who u are do not get mad at me, this is not to hurt anyone it just how i feel)
And i not have the money to do online dating, and it is more heart breaking when my fiends kids are getting married, that i use to hold when they were babies. Life will go on, tomorrow is a new day and life will go on, even if i sit on the couch all day, until i go to my fiend house. but i am healthy and can go anywhere i want to. I am sorry this is not an up lifting post but it is where i am in life and i will make it work, with or without my dream coming true.

well i guess i did have more to say then i thought. he he he
love to all

what up with me???????

not much, just what a change, how, I am think about writing my life down, how it will turn out i do not now but i am going to try. I have been think a lot about this in the pass week. What will it look like, can i do it??? I just feel God is speaking to me to do this. any ideas??? Really I thought that at the end i would include thought from friend thought out my life so they can have and input in my life. so if you what to be thinking about that let me know. I just what to change things in my like. I am not getting any younger and i what to do this for myself, God, Friends??????? who. A lot of you do say that you love my blog and how they hear my heart in this blog. so we shell see.